When I close my eyes at night, the only thing that keeps me asleep is knowing that i am better then that.
Knowing right from wrong. This life of mine was predetermined. Pull my name from a hat.
You will never understand how deeply scarred i am. How badly my heart aches for you. How much i miss you. And who i really am.
I’ve been holding on for some time now. Perhaps too long. Im still just trying to find where i fit and to whom i belong.
Although, my heart was set on you. But what do I know? Baby blue. I have fought till i had nothing left inside. But with just one look into you eyes, the demon that feeds deep within arrives.
I have no way out. I am trapped. But one day I will be free. Free from your lies, free from demise. “I will be sad forever”, that’s just the sadist lie. You wont keep me down forever.
And one day, you…will miss me. Trust me. Love remembers.
You better believe, you would have flown with me. Goodbye
As You Are
I could write you floral arrangements
with soft pastels, vibrant reds and deep purples,
making them bloom with the
sunlight held captive beyond the
horizon of your lips.
I could write you into natural phenomenon;
making you encapsulate the
chaos of a tornado, ripping through
my mind like a mobile home,
leaving me to sort through the detritus.
I could write you as a light,
bringing illumination to an otherwise
dark world, pairing you with a subtle
warmth to chase away the coldness
I could write you as anything I wanted;
but, I choose to write you as you are:
beautiful, disturbing, and kind,
because I love you as you are
and not anything else.
So im misunderstood. Still fighting for the common good that only you and I could have, should have, would. All im asking is for a chance, All i need is your hand for this dance. Just take a glance. Why fight with our love, why complicate all the romance. Just look in my eyes, lets spark advance.
Oh, the places I want to go with you. The things I feel like showing you. I just got to give it a while. Baby girl, please be happy and smile.
There’s no reason to worry. Just hold on tight when things start getting blurry. We will make it through. There is no hurry, Boo.
So sit back, relax, and don’t you blink. You may not see it now but trust me girl, You are the one. That missing link. So im going to love you like nothing before. Fight for you like the civil war. The air corps is a last resort, its not my dream I have decided anymore. Now, that dream is you. The one I fell for, feel for, fend for, adore. You are the one that I am standing for. Lets just quietly sneak for the back door, love so hard and soar. With you, I will never need more.
If not you, I guess ill have to marry the damn liquor store;)
I love you Bailey.
How is it that one can love another this much?
Just a few days without is just too much without feeling your touch.
Feeling you up against me.
Looking at you, looking at me as we lay motionless. Not a noise but from the air we breath.
You start to grin, I grin back. No one has ever made me feel so loved, I can promise you that.
With every second spent, my heart grows fonder. Deeper and deeper in love I fall, the harder I sit back to ponder.
What we have, this isn’t luck. What we have has already been written. With you, my heart is forever stuck.
You are my now and we are forever. Everything happens for a reason, thus bringing us to this final endeavor.
For I am yours, and you are mine. Not even the sweetest of love can be changed by the strong grip of time.